In love with your best friend..

You know what... the worst place to be in is to be in love with your own best friend.. (I mean a guy..!! sheesh u weird thinking people..!!)  You know.. the weird feeling u get when u talk to them.. I mean it in a good way. The automatic smile in your face. The sound of their voice to brighten up your day..How many people actually feel that way in today's hush hush world. LOVE - a magical feeling. I never believed in it. I'm being a hypocrite just for writing this blog.. but as they say.. "When u fall.. u fall hard face down.." 


Okay, back to the best friend story.. have you people ever seen "My Best Friend's Wedding" or "Made of Honour"...? in My Best Friend's Wedding.. Julia Roberts falls in love with her best friend and goes all out to try and break up his wedding. ( in which she sadly is , unsuccessful) and in Made of Honour the guy Patrick Demsey, becomes the maid of honour to his girl best friend who he is also in love with.. I am in the same situation.. That is. I am in love with my best friend but I practically have no guts to tell him. 


He's the best guy you can ever have.. but he's the only thing that is unreachable. I know it's inappropriate.. but sometimes when your head and heart is in conflict. You tend to lean towards your heart even however stupid it seems. I may never fall in love again. Not that I care 'cuz I love being alone. I build up walls all around me and he comes and breaks them down. Man...!! I hate that I love him so. But thanks to my so obvious no-confidence self, I decided to go the Julia Roberts way and let him be.. with the one he loves.. He'll always be my best buddy, the 3 am friend in times of need. But when time comes and it does become difficult.. The best thing to do would be to let go.


Julia Roberts in My Best Friend's Wedding: " Getting what you deserve is totally unfair. "

The pressure of being a teen.

So starting into your teens is nothing new.. everyone has gone through it.. what makes it weird..?
the agony of acne and boys (and girls if you're a boy) and all the madness of school , peer pressure, being liked, standing up for what u believe in even though it isn't really your thing... All people who pass their teens and 20 years later when they have kids themselves say it is just a breeze, a passing cloud, nothing that significant. But ask a teen like me.. what it really means like to be a teen and we could fill pages in a book...

My story ain't so different either. I come from a so-called middle class family with a deep history filled with skeletons, some you wish never existed at all.I was another "geek" the so-called term labeled in your head if you plan to study rather than get drunk and party like a wild animal.

Being a teen, You get your heart broken . back stabbed by the people you trust yet.. you don't dare to say anything to anyone since the only reply you'll get is. " hey.. it's your life...!! stop being a complaint box and live with it" We've cried our heads out in school restrooms and jumped like  monkeys in the corridors if something great happens.. we've all been through it.. hell.. the whole world has.. what's new..

Everyone is given a chance to prove themselves in this point of their life.. most don't.. referring to people who live in a land of make believe... who think life is perfect and it will stay that way.. I'm referring here to people like me who have been labeled a failure by their parents and been given an option of fighting it out to break free from the restraints or get buried six feet below. So to all the people think teenage is the best time of your so-called life.. great for you. but the story isn't the same for half the population around the world.